Nicki Minaj Reveals She Had Abortion In Emotional New Song ‘All Things Go’

So tragic. In a heartbreaking new song called ‘All Things Go’, Nicki opens up about an abortion she had when she was just 15 years old.
Nicki Minaj is showing a totally vulnerable side of herself in her new song “All Things Go,” off her new album The Pinkprint. The Young Money rapper shares never-before-heard details about the pain and suffering she experienced after she decided to have an abortion at age 15.

Nicki pours out her pain on this new slow-tempo track, and the most heart-rending part is about the child she lost when she was just 15. Here are the lyrics:

“My child with Aaron would have been 16, any minute/ So in some ways I feel like Caiah is the both of them/ It’s like he’s Caiah’s little angel, looking over him.”

Caiah is Nicki’s little brother and we know he means the world to her. We can’t imagine how hard it must be for her to see Caiah and think of the baby she could have had.

Nicki is clearly still carrying the weight of her decision. She previously touched on her abortion in her 2008 song “Autobiography”, which includes lines like: “Please baby forgive me, mommy was young, mommy was to busy tryna have fun/and now I don’t pat myself on the back for sending you back.”

It’s unclear who the Aaron mentioned in “All Things Go” is but later in the song, Nicki raps: “Ten years ago, that’s when you proposed/I look down, yes I suppose.” Could it be that it was this mysterious Aaron who popped the question? Who knew Nicki was once engaged!?

Nicki also shares her sorrow over the untimely death of her cousin Nicholas, who was shot and killed in 2011:

“I lost my little cousin to a senseless act of violence/ His sister said he wanted to stay with me but I didn’t invite him/ Why didn’t he ask? Or am I just buggin’? ‘Cause since I got fame, they don’t act the same even though that they know that I love them.”

Nicki Minaj’s ‘All Things Go’ — Full Lyrics
[Verse 1]
Yo, I had to reinvent, I put the V in vent
I put the heat in vents, man I been competin’ since
I look beyond what people sayin’, and I see intent
Then I just sit back and decipher, what they really meant
Cherish these nights, cherish these people
Life is a movie, but there will never be a sequel
And I’m good with that, as long as I’m peaceful
As long as 7 years from now, I’m taking my daughter to preschool
Cherish these days, man do they go quick
Just yesterday, I swear it was ’06
Ten years ago, that’s when you proposed
I look down, yes I suppose

[Hook]
All things go, all things go
All things go, all things go
I feel one minute, yeah we got it then it’s gone
While we keep waiting for a moment ’til it falls
So can’t nobody ever tell me that I’m wrong
Cause I’mma ride I’m with you still the night is young
And we keep goin’, we go, we go, we go
We wake back up and do it all again
We know, we know, say fuck the world, we ridin’ til the end
When all is said and done, look at what we’ve become
I just want you to know, that I did it for you

[Verse 2]
I lost my little cousin, to a senseless act of violence
His sister said he wanted to stay with me, but I didn’t invite him
Why didn’t he ask, or am I just buggin’?
Cause since I got fame, they don’t act the same
Even though they know that I love him
Family ties broken before me, niggas trynna kill him, he ain’t even call me
And that’s the reflection of me, yes I get it, I get it, it was all me
I pop a pill and remember the look in his eyes, the last day he saw me

[Hook]

[Verse 3]
Let me make this clear I’m not difficult, I’m just about my business
I’m not into fake industry parties, and fake agendas
Rock with people for how they make me feel not what they give me
Even the ones that hurt me the most, I still show forgiveness
I love my mother more than life itself, and that’s a fact
I’d give it all, somehow if I could, just rekindle that
She never understands, why I’m so overprotective
The more I work, the more I feel like, somehow they’re neglected
I want ‘Caiah to go to college, just to say “We did it!”
My child with Aaron, would’ve have been sixteen, any minute
So in some ways I feel like ‘Caiah, is the both of them
It’s like he’s ‘Caiah’s little angel, looking over him
And I know Jelani will always love me, and I’ll always love him
And I’m just his little sister not Nicki Minaj when I’m around him
Gee we did it, let’s leave this imprint
Just finished writing, this is The Pinkprint

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