The recording artist and music mogul told the New York Times, in an interview posted on Wednesday, that he’s still emotionally scarred from his impoverished upbringing in Brooklyn.
And as Jay-Z discussed psychotherapy that’s when he made his admission of “infidelity.”
“You have to survive. So you go into survival mode, and when you go into survival mode what happens? You shut down all emotions. So even with women, you gonna shut down emotionally, so you can’t connect,” he told executive editor Dean Baquet. “In my case, like it’s, it’s deep. And then all the things happen from there: Infidelity.”
Baquet didn’t appear to push Jay-Z for any other details of his cheating.
Both Jay-Z and his wife have seemingly addressed their marital ups and downs via song.
In Beyoncé’s track “Sorry” in 2016, she referenced, “Becky with the good hair,” a phrase that’s been used to describe the other woman.
Then this past summer, Jay-Z in his track “4:44” alluded to cheating.
“I apologize often womanize. Took for my child to be born. See through a woman’s eyes. Took for these natural twins to believe in miracles. Took me too long for this song, I don’t deserve you,” according to Jay-Z’s lyrics.
Jay-Z also said he’s closer than ever to mom Gloria Carter, who came out through his track “Smile” earlier this year.
The Brooklyn native said he’s known since he was teen that his mom was gay.
“But we never spoke about it,” he said. “Until like recently now we start having these beautiful conversations and just really getting to know each other. We were always good friends but now we’re really great friends.”
The 47-year-old artist born Shawn Corey Carter said rap is a young man’s game – and that he’s in the sunset of his recording career.
“I think rap in particular is a young man’s sport and I’ll move out of that white-hot space. Rap is about the gift discovery. The white-hot space is when it’s fresh and new, and it’s like the hottest song ever,” he said.
“I stretched it. Oh I stood in that window a really long time. But still, no, I don’t think people are looking to me as like, The Thing.”