GERMANY'S GOALKEEPER JUMPS IN FRONT OF A TRAIN & COMMITS SUICIDE NEAR HIS DAUGHTER'S GRAVE!

HANNOVER, Germany - The German goalkeeper who was struck and killed by a train left a suicide note, police said, and Robert Enke's widow says he had been suffering from depression.
Speaking at a news conference called by his club, Teresa Enke said her 32-year-old husband was afraid their adopted daughter would be taken away from the family if his illness became public knowledge. The couple's biological daughter died three years ago from a heart problem when she was 2.

"I tried to be there for him," Teresa Enke said Wednesday, choking back tears. "When he was acutely depressive, it was a difficult time. We thought we'd manage everything. We thought with love, we could do it. But you can't."

Mrs. Enke said her husband had been afraid that he would lose "his sport, our private life," if his illness had become known. In May, the couple adopted a girl who is now 8 months old.

Enke died Tuesday evening when he threw himself before a train near his Hannover home. Police said Wednesday they had found a suicide note.

Enke had a good chance of being Germany's top goalkeeper at next year's World Cup in South Africa.

Valentin Markser, a doctor who treated Enke, said the goalkeeper first sought treatment in 2003, when he lost his starting place at Barcelona and developed anxieties and fear of failure.

Enke again sought treatment in early October, after developing a mysterious illness. Doctors took several weeks to determine that he had been suffering from a bacterial intestinal infection.

In a suicide note, Enke apologized to his family and the staff treating him for deliberately misleading them into believing he was better, "which was necessary in order to carry out the suicide plans," Markser said.

"Despite daily treatment, we did not succeed in preventing his suicide," the doctor said of Enke, who declined to stay at a clinic.

The German soccer federation announced Wednesday it had called off the national team's exhibition against Chile on Saturday.

Enke had not been selected for Saturday's exhibition and Wednesday's game against Ivory Coast in Gelsenkirchen because he had only recently returned from the intestinal infection and played only two Bundesliga games.

The illness had kept him sidelined for nine weeks and forced him to miss four Germany games.

Germany coach Joachim Loew said the team could not go back to business as usual.

"We lost a friend, we deeply mourn Robert Enke," Loew said. "I feel completely empty. He was a great guy. He had incredible respect for others. We will miss him, as a top-class sportsman and an extraordinary man."